
Health: All systems go. I've lost quite a bit of weight (25-30 lbs?) and much energy, but no signs of damaged health.
Plan: 18 days more of hunger strike water only, 5 days food, a final 20 days hunger strike (witness for the returning College Students) for a total of 60 days Hunger Strike. I am very excited and pleased.
Support for the effort. Yesterday and today thanks to some angels (some in Code Pink) support began to materialize. More on that at a later date, within the limits of confidentiality.
Today came the most important clarity of my life thus far. The most important with respect to Darfur, and more broadly with respect to my quest to help heal and save the world.
Roughly 12 years ago a door was closed by me. I sensed it, I permitted it, I cooperated with the closing but only today did I gain clarity. On that day something snapped, something that had been progressing for my whole life jumped a quantum. What I understood that day was that $250,000 (or $2.5 million for that matter) per year guaranteed income was insufficient to pay for the use of my life to make rich people richer. I immediately resigned my VP Business Development position with the Boston software firm that employed me and began the journey that brings me here today.
The clarity of today? I can name the door I allowed to close now, and in doing so I can be even more deliberate in what I reject, and what I embrace and stand for in my life!!!!
This revelation of today did not occur due to my restudy this last week of Gandhi, but that study definitely helps with the perspective! Gandhi has always taught - IT IS SACRED DUTY TO NON-COOPERATE WITH EVIL.
THE EVIL THAT I BEGAN TO LEARN TO REJECT MORE CLEARLY 12 YEARS AGO IS THE EVIL OF the double standard inherent in the notion of NON-IMMEDIATE-FAMILY.
NO!!! EVERY ETHICAL SYSTEM HAS TOLD US - ONE FAMILY - NO DOUBLE STANDARDS. OUR HEARTS TELL US - ONE FAMILY, NO DOUBLE STANDARDS. Love your neighbor AS YOURSELF. "Ubuntu," an ancient African word, meaning "humanity to others"; also means "I am what I am because of who we all are".
Several days ago I realized that the small slush fund I thought I had to enable the Darfur Vigil / Hunger Strike laptop and cell phone was gone. Any money for transportation or food for after the vigil was gone. (A delivery company reneged on money owed me for wrecking a car I owned.) The implications of this financial shortfall were death: death of communication for this fight for Darfur; death for me by ultimate starvation. I faced death down this several days ago. I would not give in. I would not give up. This was frightening, enormously liberating, and ultimately a great relief, and JOY.
NEVER AGAIN. I expect to never again cooperate with the consummate evil, the root of all evil, THE LIE THAT WE ARE NOT ALL BROTHERS AND SISTERS. I cry with relief and joy at this long sought clarity. I will BE a brother to all no matter what. I will exist, I will live ONLY if others treat me as such. To do otherwise would be to ENABLE, TO EMPOWER the greatest evil on the plant - the LIE OF MULTIPLE FAMILIES; THE LIE THAT WE ARE NOT ALL BROTHERS AND SISTERS TOTALLY, LITERALLY, ACTUALLY, REALLY.
WE ARE. Come on my brothers and sisters, let's get on with it. LET'S BASK, LET US FIGHT FOR THE LEAST OF THESE OUR FAMILY IN THE JOY, LIFE AND LOVE OF IT. Let us go where Gandhi, King, Jesus... died to lead us. Heaven. Heaven in the attempt even as we fall short of the goal.










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